I really wasn’t looking forward to today’s prayer groups.
I’ve been so addicted to GLEE these past few days..
My roommate brought the whole first & second season to college..and
now all i do is wake up, go to class, eat, watch glee, study, watch glee, sleep.
That has been my schedule for the last 4 or 5 days.
I can already feel the stomach rolls forming.
But anyways..Today, during prayer groups..we watched a video
about WHAT WOULD HAPPEN if Jesus came right now.
Would you go to hell? Wouldn’t it be embarrassing if Jesus came down
RIGHT NOW..and you’re on facebook? Or you’re watching a movie that
involves vulgar language? Why surround yourself with this stuff?
I was like DANG.
And another thing I came across with today was that it’s not good to
be surrounded by people who might bring you down. If a friend isn’t helping my
Christian walk, then sure..try to help them, but if they don’t listen & they keep bringing you down..then walk away. That sounds so much easier said than done.
To be honest, I need to straighten out my life.
Today’s challenge was the daniel fast. Only drink water, & we could only eat fruits & vegetables!
I thought to myself.. “TOO EASY!”
…I was so wrong..for some reason, I was craving tuna and pepperoni..-_-
so i ate some. HAH! I completely forgot about the challenge until i finished eating..and
satisfied my hunger. blah. Also, since our RA’s took our bibles from us for the whole week,
It has been a struggle getting through my bible classes, but it’s also a great reminder for me of how
I take this blessing for granted.
fun fact: Peanut butter jars ARE flammable..yes, my roommate is an idiot. -__- hah kidding. (kind of)
Jeremiah 29:11
“For i know the plans i have for you” Declares the Lord. “plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”
During small groups last night, we had to dress up in all black, and walk about half a mile to a tiny church on campus. We were not allowed to speak during our walk. The purpose of this, was to experience how it would feel like to sneak around to church at night. “underground church”
Once our hall got to our destination, we all sat down, and listened to a missionary speak to us about her experiences around the world. Afterwards, we got into our small groups once again, and took prayer requests, and had a couple of minutes to look through the bible to write down our favorite bible verses. The bible verse i wrote up there, is my favorite. It helps me know that God has not left me here to go on this journey alone, but he’s always with me, and he knows my future, and it’s going to be great!
After we wrote down our bible verses, they turned off all the lights so it was pitch black. We had about a minute or two to pray and think about the verse we wrote down. All of a sudden there was pounding, and screaming outside of the church. Then these four guys come walking in with flash lights telling us to hand over our bibles. They were screaming at us, and telling us to never EVER have a prayer meeting again, because it’s illegal and inappropriate. I knew it was just an act, but it really scared me, and at that moment it hit me how people around the world have to risk their lives just to read the bible, and go to church, but we are so blessed to be able to carry the word around, and sometimes even forget it. I already “knew” this, but it did not impact me till last night. So after the scary guys left with all 63 of our bibles, the lights turned back on again. Our RA came out and said, we won’t have our bibles back till next week or so. The verse we have written down in our notebook will be something to think back to and remember why it’s important. Then she told us a story when she went on a mission trip to China, they were not allowed to have a bible with them. So..when people went to church in China, they would write down one bible verse each week that the pastor or whoever was talking that day said. She also said that her group wrote down bible verses on strips of paper, since they were not allowed to have a bible. I thought that was pretty neat.
Our challenge for last night was to sleep on the floor. Well..i have a cold, so i took some nyquil and knocked out on the floor. Wasn’t bad at all! Today’s challenge was to not use any sort of transportation & walk everywhere. Haha
I want to challenge..whoever is reading my blog to
do the same, or even make up a challenge and let me know
so i can join! :)
I know this blog & the previous blog is completely
opposite of my college blog…
i was thinking about erasing that depressing rant, but
i want to look back at it in the future and see how much i’ve grown.
It’s getting a lot better.
I’ve made a few more friends and the fellowship within
the hall is amazing! Still feel homesick once in a while.. but
I’m okay now. I CAN DO THIS! :)
The thoughts about transferring are starting to
disappear more and more…but who knows.
I actually enjoy the campus now & the beautiful mountains that surround us. Thinking about going on a mission trip here next year..but it’s way out of my budget :/
we will see.. God will provide!
I am so excited to go back home this weekend!
seriously… cannot wait to cuddle with my dog, and
eat some good korean food… <3 mmmmm.
family time, and sleeping in my bed…..alskdjaflskdjf
just thinking about it makes me drool….
ok bye.
what do you want me to do?
This is something I don’t want to say, but I honestly don’t want to be here.
I miss my family. I just want to go back home.
I feel stupid for writing this blog, but a friend of mine inspired me to blog rant. Why do i feel so bipolar these days. Nothing seems to satisfy me. I miss my church. Im alone here.
This past weekend, i visited tech. People seemed lively there, and actually were awake past 1am. cool.
Noticed many changes in people, some good, some bad.
i really do think college makes people stupid if you don’t make smart decisions. (duh)
i don’t know where I’m going with this blog, nor do i care.
i thought coming to a new place and starting over would be great. Maybe i just need to give it some more time, but so far i feel like i have made the biggest mistake of my life. I know theres a reason why God wanted me to come here. I just need to figure that out now. Does he want me to transfer? Change my major? Make new friends? Change who i am?.. all these questions seriously make my mind go nuts. I thought coming here would make my relationship more intimate with God. yeah sure we have worship and sermon about 5 times a week.. (12 times this week though.)
I am constantly reminded of him cause we “have” to attend these. I feel alone though. there are 20,00 students on campus, and I’m sure a good amount of them are dealing with the same thing as i am. I can’t walk this walk alone. I need friends who will help me along the way, lift me back up onto my feet. I just have not found those friends yet.. my roommates are great! they are the nicest people and i know they are there for me if i ever need something.
why is it so hard to talk about God with them? It’s a topic that rarely comes out of our mouths. I feel like i can’t be myself here. Yes. i know i have friends outside of this school, i have a great family who loves me, and i should be super thankful for everything. i know that. so please don’t tell me something i already know. it’s only been 3 weeks since school has started. Got any advice on how to make friends? please let me know!
Cause I am freaking anti- social here. I talked, ate, smiled, laughed more at tech for 3 days than the 3 weeks here.
“it’s what you make of it.”
^ yeah, shut up.
People avoid asians because they travel together and they think we can’t speak english. I travel alone, and I CAN speak english better than korean. STOP being so stereotypical.
If you think this blog is stupid and pointless, then stop reading.
I’m just writing out my feelings because i feel like I have been hiding them for a couple of weeks now. I feel like i can’t go to anyone and talk to them about my problems. I want to tell my mom al this,but it’ll just worry her. Posting pictures on fb to make people think im having fun here..good disguise, heh?
It’s okay. I’m thankful for having kevin as my boyfriend too. Why am i writing this blog the day i get back from tech? Maybe im just “love sick?” Of course i miss him, but i miss being myself more. I am constantly thinking, “This is just a camp..it’l be over soon.” I definitely needed a reality check.
I hated high school, but i can HONESTLY say..
i like it better than this place.
Sorry..if you’re reading this, im sure you’re getting sick of me saying, “I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I…I”
I’m also sorry that im going all over the place.
This is a blog. Do blogs have to be organized too?
no one said it would be easy…but
i just didn’t know it would be this hard and lonely..
i wish i could rewind time..
it’s too late now.
hello! :)
umm.. i should really update my blog more often.. >< sorrayy.
tehee..so yeah just a few weeks left till summer is over! WAS THAT THE SHORTEST SUMMER OR WHAT?!
gooodness… -_- i guess i miss seeing friends everyday and stuff though?..eh.. well..
since school is about to start again (SENIOR YEAR!) everyone is probably doing their summer assignments now hahaa!.. i should start on mine too.. :o) i feel like this blog is going to be..pointless and boring .. oh my..
come to think of it.. all my blogs are boring.. :( OKAY. wanna know something interesting? i recently got my wisdom teeth pulled out! and it was pretty scary! :o). well..first i got into the surgery room and they put an IV shot in my arm..then the doctor kept talking to me and soon my words started coming out realllyyyyy slow LOL..then i don’t remember what happened after that. i just remember waking up with gauze in my mouth and i couldn’t feel my lips, chin, or tongue. the worst part was…eating! im still in recovery ..so i havnt eaten..REAL GOOD food for.. 48 hours. i want some galbi…..yumm.. (: & my face is like a pumpkin d-_-b
hmm..what else is new?.. uhh OH so..about two weeks ago phil park led on sunday and it was seriously awesome :) i was mad blessed that day…wow. we all sat on the ground (which was pretty cool but uncomfortable) then we had a time to respond and just pray. Counselors around us would come pray for us and yeahhh <3 Lisa prayed for me and a couple of my friends, and i truly felt God’s love pouring down on us. She told me “Sue..God’s love for you is so tender” and she told me a bunch of other stuff tooo (feel free to just come talk to me if you wanna know more! :))
hmm oh and im so glad the mission teams came back blessed and safe <3 A few of them told their testimonies on sunday! They were really good :) Im FOR SURE 100.99% im going on missions next time! :) im not sure where.. but wherever God wants to take me im giving him all my trust <3
umm i guess thats all for now :P ill update before school starts! I PROMISE :)..actually jk.. LOL
Sorry it’s been like 2 months since ive last written. Honestly.. i kind of forgot about my blog till today when a couple of my friends and i were at GMU bumming, and got on the computers. well as you can see the title “a new chapter of my life” JUNIOR YEAR IS DONE!!! WOOOOT! SENIORS 2011! it’s kind of scary thinking that we are already 12th graders. i still feel like a freshman. Life comes faster and faster as we grow older. There are so many things i want to erase from the past, and also re-do. Of course that’s not possible, but the future is something I am looking forward to. “Don’t keep looking back, move on”. Junior year was a pain in the butt for me. So much homework, project, tests, etc! I regret slacking 3rd quarter… :( but I’m just glad it’s ALL OVER!!
some things I am looking forward to in summer 2010 :
-World cup!
-Bonfire @ nathan’s
-ODPC summer retreat
-VBX/fruitfulvineyard
-Ocean city
-Kings Dominion
-Gambia/DC missions! (ill keep you guys in my prayers)
-& just bumming with friends :)
Today was a really good day. I really hope that this summer retreat will be a good one. Im sick of waiting for retreats to reunite with God. I want it now & everday. Not just during those 4 days. Also Ive been thinking…& i think that Junior year was the year that impacted me the most. I know who to trust now, and Ive gotten a lil closer to the junior boys also. I also know what i should keep to myself, and i feel like Ive just mentally matured. There are so many more things i would love to share, but it’s not popping up in my head at the moment. I hope that senior year will be even better, and all my brothers and sisters will grow stronger spiritually through Christ. I hope that the upper classmen (us) step up and try to get closer with the lower classmen. If I think about it, when we were little 7th graders..& the older brothers/sisters never acknowledged us ,didn’t it feel like they didn’t care and all they cared about was themselves and their friends? That is probably how these kids feel now, so lets make a difference! I feel like a total hypocrite saying that…since I myself tend to hang out in my own lil group at church, and only sit with them, and so on, but seriously…lets make a change :/
Proverbs 18:1 Unfriendly people care only about themselves; they lash out at common sense.
I really need to work on completely forgiving people, and loving my enemies. It’s so hard…
Luke 6:27-30 ”But I say to you who hear, love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you,pray for those who mistreat you.Whoever hits you on the cheek, offer him the other also; and whoever takes away your coat, do not withhold your shirt from him either.Give to everyone who asks of you, and whoever takes away what is yours, do not demand it back.”
Hopefully my next blog will be sooner than 2 months..
peace!
